Let's Celebrate

I just got out from sauna. I'm feeling really tired and Robin's taking a nap now.

Tomorrow is actually Father's Day.

His stepfather came to us before 12 O'clock for coffee. 

Yes, he drove all the way from Helsinki to Kouvola. What was Robin thinking exactly ?

I would definitely make food for him. And I was so hungry!

Robin gave a coffee mug set and a ginger beer to his stepfather.

They talked and talked, I was just listen quietly and tried to figure it out if I understand.

No, I did not! To prove my skills, I remember only  Mitä Kuuluu? which means How are you?

Shame on me! :D

Then we decided to go and have Nepalese food. We've never been there before.

But I guessed there's so different from Indian food. 

I love Indian food, specially curry with rotis or breads. So good.

I'm been craving for curry few days now and I was going to make it today but we were in Nepalese restaurant so I ordered chicken curry. 

Robin ordered lamb Masala, he thinks the food tasted okay.

(I knew that they have spicy curry powder but didn't think it was that spicy.)

The curry was so good. My advice is eat with bread!

That was our day. Next time I must try their tea.

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Anders allowed me to have only one picture of Elias in my blog. 

Thank you very much but I said 2 pictures.

Happy birthday Elias! Now he's 4 years old.

He's so cute! And This time he hugged me twice. I was so happy!

Cause the last time he told me he was afraid of me.

When we got there, Diana's family was about to leave.

Sara seemed so scared of me. Maybe I looked like a ghost with this wig. :D

Thank you both of you Maggie and Anders for the cakes and yesterday.

P.s I hate my phone camera.

Good night Finland. <3

Catch Your Dream

It was another feel good day.

I finished one of my couch covers. So glad that I did, I've been waiting to get in better mood.

I thought I won't cut my fingers with a scissor.

 But then I did, I sniped little on my thumb with my slowly re-action. 

I acted like nothing happened and continued sewing tills I was done 

and saw some blood on the fabric.

Yesterday I was very activated, I did my Finnish homework few hours before the class.

And I put those clothes on me, I have no ideas why but I love it!

Well, our teacher always sends the homework to us every Tuesday. 

But this week I got homework on Monday. 

The class went okay for me. We got to play with the picture cards.

 I don't even know all the words about fruits, vegetables...e.t.c

I should buy a Finnish picture-dictionary. Maybe I will learn more.

The teacher told us for a long time that we should buy picture cards.

We never bought the cards.

He asked why don't we have picture cards? I answered him directly No kids!

Everyone just laughed. :D

Tomorrow we are going to cerebrate Robin's godson in Porvoo. 

He's very cute, talkative and he has so long and massive eyelashes. 

But he said to me he's afraid of me. :D 

Last time we missed Sara's birthday. Sara! The perfect Sara!

 Why did Robin get so cute godson and goddaughter? 

I must sew my second cover and do some decoration cause 

Robin's stepfather will visit us here on Saturday. It's a father's day!

Have a nice day<3

  

Goodbye October

      

I woke up early on Friday. All I can think is painting my nails, which I haven't done it for 5 months.

I bought Chanel nail polish from Tax Free and it was on the sale. 

Even though it is Chanel but I won't pay 19 € for a nail polish. 

It isn't easy being a girl. That what I knew since I was kid. And the result look like a 5 years old was playing with mom's nail polish. XD I do not know why my hands were shaken so much.

Well...maybe beauty isn't my thing.

When Robin came, he asked if we want to out for a dinner. I said yes and picked dresses, thrown them on the couch.

 He turned his head and said directly it's too beautiful, we are just going to have some pizzas.

 Put some basic on for ex simple jeans and t-shirt. :D I picked another dress.

 He still thought it's beautiful. So I changed into jeans and t-shirt.

After I'm done with changing, he wondered if I want to go shopping then we can have dinner there.

You know how hard for a girl to find what to wear. :P

I changed again to a pink dress and quickly moved our legs to the shopping mall.

We had dinner at Mario. I finished almost a whole chicken burger dish. It was super delicious!  

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It was a Halloween Day! A another year without Halloween costume.

Robin drove to Porvoo to helping his friend fix a car and visit his sister's family.

I didn't know where should I be waiting while he fixes a car 

and also Jennifer has moved back to Tammisaari.

I still have Mari in Lathi and it's the closest to Kouvoula. I sent her a message. 

Thank you that she answered!

She told me before that she's really bad at keep in touch with people. Neither do I.

I haven't seen her over a year. It's good to see her again and to hang out with old friend.

I don't trust people, specially now. 

When you let a new person in your life, you have to learn about that person. 

It's going to take a whole life to do it, if that person is worth to be in your life.

I have to say I'm really miss her.

 Since third year in school, before Christmas vocation Mari walked in to my room with happy face and told me a good new that I had been waiting to hear for over 2 years. 

( We lived in the same building in Tammisaari.)

My tears started to drop then I told her you don't need to tell me, I knew everything. 

I knew everything an hour before she came.

Then I saw her crying. Damn it! I made her cried!

I didn't know she cared so much about me. 

I spent a lot of time with her back in Tammisaari. It was good memories.

Anyway I met her at the railway station before 12 O' clock. It took a half an hour with train to Lathi.

After meeting her in the station, we took a bus to Exhibition.

It was like the other handicraft  Exhibition. But The doll house made us so wow.

I felt like being a small girl again. :) I saw a cute sewing machine and I bought it.

 After that we tried to go to the second hand shop but it closed just a minute we came. 

We walked back to the city and had pizzas at Rosso. Later we had teas and macarons in a cafe.

Mari said she loves macarons and they are good. So I tried again.

I am not a fan of macarons. I tasted many times, still think it's not nothing special. 

 Lucky me!

I tasted a good macaron once when I practiced in Salt Shop. One of the personals visited her daughter in French and bought the macarons with her.  

The last thing for me is I hope I'll see Mari again.

Have a nice day.

I Hurt Myself Today

               

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What a day! I was TE-palvelut for searching a job , nothing special happened as usually.

I sat there only a minute then I cried in front of personal. I forced myself not cry but the tears dropped quickly down on my face.

 I said I don't care how much money I will make right now. All I need is have something to do. 

My healthy is bad and I need to think positive  but I don't know how.......

I felt totally lost.

And I don't know if I have breast cancer or not. She said she understood.

I felt much better when I saw my mom but then I fell back to the same routine. 

I'm so tired like I do not wanna talk and see people. Just want to laid down on my bed.

After 3 hours Robin picked me up to hospital. 

I wasn't nervous until a nurse called my name and took me for X-ray. She asked if I'm pregnant. 

I answered no, I don't think so and I hope not.

 It was hurtful to do mammogram. My arms were dead while doing that.

A nurse just said it will take 10 minutes then a doctor will tell you if you need ultra sound.

After that a doctor walked in. So I did ultra sound my breasts. 

I tried to see if there was anything but I saw nothing. And Later he said nothing to me, just went to get a nurse back to the room. 

I can guess what they were going to do next.

Yes, I got a needle to my breast. I just closed my eyes and my whole body was shaken.

Firstly it was like taking a blood test but a second it was hurt like hell. I felt a needle into that lump. 

It was hard to breath.

I don't even know when he took it off but I felt my blood ran to my back. 

I still hope it's not a cancer.

Fall Vocation

22.10.2015

Last week on Thursday I woke up in the darkness, I walked directly to kitchen for a glass of water.

I saw something stood on the table. I guessed I haven't woken up yet so I thought it was an alien. :D

 Then I looked closer it was a bunch of roses. :) I love when my boyfriend is a little romantic. 

Almost two years that we fight and love.

Things are great now, only people don't bring stupid things up again.

Around 2 p.m we started to drive to Helsinki. While we were on the road, my right eye twisted.

I thought positively thinking nothing bad will happen. All I want is to see my mom!

We arrived to Helsinki and left our car on his stepfather's yard then he drove us to harbor.

 We had a dinner in the ferry. It seemed like there was no sits for us in the restaurant.

But we got our table. Our table was closer to a partner, who ordered salmon menu.

I felt directly how bad it smelled and it was stupid idea to order greasy food like pasta. 

Lately that evening the ferry started to sway. What a bad day!

My body didn't feel okay. It was the first time for me that the ferry swayed like hell.

Robin drank a beer, I had ice-cream and tea after dinner and we played some games.

Then we moved our legs back to our cabin. The ferry swayed even more. I felt dead!

I know that I started to be paranoid more often than before.

 I tried to sleep but I woke up all the time. 

The weather scared me so much and Jack and Rose's story flew in to my mind.

I told myself, please don't leave us with the fishes in the middle of nowhere in the ocean.

I still want to see my mom! Thank god! The ferry arrived in Mariehamn but a half an hour late.

Well... better than be in the ocean.  

I got cash again.

Friday

Robert picked us up around 5 a.m. When we came in to my old bedroom, their cat wanted to come in.

They named him Hansen. 

It screamed in few minutes. I don't want cats in the bed, I don't care how cute they are.

They lose hair so much that's why.

Then Hansen didn't want me to hold him at all. It always wanted to play with mom.

My mom made Sukiyaki ( Japanese soup ) I ate in 2 days and robin got a try.

In the evening We went to meet his friend in Dino's. I sat there few minutes and ran off to meet Suksi.

R.I.P Rut. We always love you.

On Saturday we visited Tor. He's always talkative. He talked almost with Robin.

Everything I come to visited Tor. I always look at their old pictures. 

I have a copy of Rut's photo here. I still don't  understand why I do that but I always question myself,

do you think if love is real or it's just drama we play?

Now it's 1 p.m. Robin is coming to pick me up soon to Hospital.

Have a nice day. <3

Kotka

Our Sunday in Kotka.