I Hurt Myself Today

               

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What a day! I was TE-palvelut for searching a job , nothing special happened as usually.

I sat there only a minute then I cried in front of personal. I forced myself not cry but the tears dropped quickly down on my face.

 I said I don't care how much money I will make right now. All I need is have something to do. 

My healthy is bad and I need to think positive  but I don't know how.......

I felt totally lost.

And I don't know if I have breast cancer or not. She said she understood.

I felt much better when I saw my mom but then I fell back to the same routine. 

I'm so tired like I do not wanna talk and see people. Just want to laid down on my bed.

After 3 hours Robin picked me up to hospital. 

I wasn't nervous until a nurse called my name and took me for X-ray. She asked if I'm pregnant. 

I answered no, I don't think so and I hope not.

 It was hurtful to do mammogram. My arms were dead while doing that.

A nurse just said it will take 10 minutes then a doctor will tell you if you need ultra sound.

After that a doctor walked in. So I did ultra sound my breasts. 

I tried to see if there was anything but I saw nothing. And Later he said nothing to me, just went to get a nurse back to the room. 

I can guess what they were going to do next.

Yes, I got a needle to my breast. I just closed my eyes and my whole body was shaken.

Firstly it was like taking a blood test but a second it was hurt like hell. I felt a needle into that lump. 

It was hard to breath.

I don't even know when he took it off but I felt my blood ran to my back. 

I still hope it's not a cancer.